Monday, April 11, 2016

Are You Still There?

Jesus Christ it’s been a while. Some of my readers aren’t even alive anymore! I’ve wanted to write so many times but motherhood, as magical as it is has this way of sucking every last bit of energy you have, rendering you a lifeless illiterate…ammi right? ; ) My thoughts are so scattered most of the time that I can’t seem to put them into words let alone punctuate them correctly!  I feel like I’m in the midst of a re-birth. I’m not even sure I can identify as The Farmer’s Only Daughter anymore….I can still be described with those words because they’re accurate, but so much has changed I feel like this blog and that title are a relic from a past life where I slept in, ate warm meals, had time for sophisticated crafts, filled my house with clutter I purchased from Value Village, and thought about myself constantly! I’m just not that person anymore. I'm still trying to figure out who this new person is…the 30 something year old woman with the full time job, a child I OBSESS over, a husband, a house (excuse me while I hyperventilate!) but as a dear friend so eloquently put it earlier today, I am on a journey, and I have so much to share. So I think the blog is back on. I need to talk this shit out!  Better now with you than in my head at 4am, right? :)

So since we last spoke my journey has been filled with a lot of mental instability, a huge amount of success with my green beauty endeavours (more on that later), hormonal ups and downs, debilitating love, sleepless nights, a lifetime worth of breastfeeding that I’m still trying to kick (fuuuuuck) but it’s been totally amazing, between breakdowns, and as I come out these moments of cray cray I feel a deep sense of clarity that I’ve never felt before. I think it might be a sense of confidence that I’m getting something right? I’m happy as shit! I’m really hoping this isn’t a surge of estrogen that is going to drop off in a couple of days leaving me feeling sad and ugly...

But anyway, the blog is back and I would love nothing more than to hear from you. Say hi would ya!

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  1. From Uncle Terry.
    Yep life and parenting at the same time sucks frequently. Don't feel I did very well when the kids were young and my health was on the fritz! So I sympathize although I am sure I don't know really how you feel as we all go through things differently. Someone said to me it keeps changing as the kid(s) grow and that was true. Of course Nanny often reminds us it's a life sentence, wow how that helps NOT.
    Anyways it looks like you and James are doing a great job to me!
    Welcome back Farmers only Daughter!
    Love Uncle Terry :-) :-( :-)

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  2. I love everything about this post! Mostly because, as a fellow mother looking from the outside in, you always look like you have your SHIT together! This is refreshing and, quite frankly, tots reassuring. I am here & reading!

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    1. Aw, thanks Carling. Glad I appear to have my shit together but even more glad that I can be an honest voice to a fellow mother and woman. It's a big part about why I want to blog. I've found a lot of comfort and reassurance from reading other blogs, I want to join in and start my own community! Happy to know you're a part of it. xx

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  3. Dez, glad to see you back! I love your blog and am right along side you on the rollercoaster of parenting. It's insane! Agreed it does transform you so much every day - through good times...and not so good times. Excited to read and relate! Peace mama ��

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  5. I love this post too.

    I believe in speaking the truth about parenting and sharing the nitty gritty of everyday life. It doesnt make us any less the perfect-parent for our assigned littlen's. With every new stage of our childs development, it teaches us more to judge each others parenting less.

    Im so excited to hear about your journey. Please keep sharing!

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    1. Thanks Gemma! So happy I've got some strong women listening in...I should do a little bio on you sometime...i'd love to hear about how you juggle being a business owner and a mother of two!

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    2. Wine..a lot of wine ;)
      I'd love to highlight the benefits of pre-loved shopping for our babes though. Things to look for "How to shop pre-loved" but with your style, lots of fun!

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    3. Wine..a lot of wine ;)
      I'd love to highlight the benefits of pre-loved shopping for our babes though. Things to look for "How to shop pre-loved" but with your style, lots of fun!

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    4. Ha ha, sorry just getting this reply now! Yes, a lot of wine is the key to success in my books! Great idea about the pre-loved clothing post. I had a lot of success with that in the early years but it's become more difficult now that she's a toddler...I figure other kids her age may also destroy their clothes before they grow out of them... :) I'll get in touch about a little guest spot...:)

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